Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Anxiety Update

First I want to say thanks to all the support and help I got from everyone over the past two weeks.  It was a really hard time for me and I couldn't have done it without all the help.   I am back home now and things are going better.  The anxiety comes and goes but I am learning to not let it control my life.  Basically I am learning that if I give in to the anxiety and sit in bed and cry all day then it will get stronger.  But if I try to live my normal life and kind of push through the anxiety then it will lose strength and go away.  Or maybe not go away, but at least it will get put in the background of my life just like a person normally experiences anxiety.  Does that make sense to everyone?  It is new to me but that is my basic understanding of it at this point.

I think being sick just felt like too much to handle and I got really scared that I wasn't going to get better or that after I got better I would just get sick again.  It is strange how it just kind of took over my life.  Anyway, so I am back to blogging and taking care of the kids and house.  Thanks for being patient with me.

Regardless of all this it was nice to get to spend extra time with my parents and some siblings.  Two of my brothers are going to college in a couple weeks so it was good to see them extra before they left.

My parents are planning on moving after my dad retires so that means it is time for them to fix up the house.  While I was there they got a new roof and started painting.  I had no idea how long it takes to paint a house without spraying it.  Good luck to them.
 Tucker even helped a little.


3 comments:

Breakfast at the Zemke's said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your anxiety. I too have anxiety from time to time and I've had a few attacks in my day. One was just last month. I woke up with a stiff neck, I couldn't move it and I started to freak out. When I get an attack my vision gets wonky and I have a hard time breathing which freaks me out even more. Its such a strange thing but your not alone and I hope you start feeling better. My mom always tells me what your feeling isn't necessarily real, its just a feeling so close your eyes and take a deep breath! All will be well.

Gayle Daly said...

I can totally understand your feelings of anxiety. You will be okay. This is a very demanding time in your life. Three little ones to care for, home, husband, yourself and everything else. You are blessed to have family nearby to get help from. Are your parents going to move far away? I have missed your blog posts. Welcome Back!

Mini Me Style said...

I am so sorry to hear about everything you've been dealing with, and I'm thinking about you. I get anxiety attacks, too - mine are situation-specific, and I know how debilitating they can feel. Glad to hear that you're taking care of yourself!