These last few days I have been thinking about my past and how much fun it was. Maybe it is just that I only remember the good times, I don't know. But I was starting to feel sad over the fact that I can't ever go back and do it again. Not that I would want to change anything. Just because it was so much fun I want to do it again.
When I was talking about this with Bob he thought this was a dis on him and the kids, but it's not. I love them and couldn't be happier that my life has turned out the way it has. In many ways my life is much better now than it ever has been before. It is just that I love my life now but I loved it then too and things were very different then. Not really better or worse just different. Sometimes I miss it. And sometimes I wish I could go back to different times in my life for just for a week to experience it again.
It is strange to miss a part of my life that is done and over. Is it just me or do you ever feel like this? Do you have any insight that I am missing here?
5 comments:
For me other than the time in my life when we were raising our children, I don't want to go back for even a week. I'm envious that you have such fond memories. That's a great indicator that you enjoy life and have been blessed with a wonderful attitude and the ability to see the good. You should feel no guilt!
Sometimes I want to go back just because life was so much simpler. I loved my life, too, and I do think it'd be fun to go back to when I was a little girl, or to high school or college, but just for a day. It's more like I'd just like to go watch my life for a day back then, not actually live it again. My life now is way better than it has ever been, so I'd never want to go back and have to do it all over again. But I think I know what you mean... That's why I take so many pictures, I think, is because in a way that's kind of reliving all of your experiences! If you're feeling nostalgic, just go back and look through old photo albums. That always helps me! :)
I'm with Gayle. My past is in the past and there it should stay. And the only way I would relive the past is if I could do it knowing what I know now and be the person I am now. However, I do understand where you are coming from...you are in a different stage of life; nobody said you can't reminisce about the past.
My feeling is, enjoy TODAY. We just can't go back, or make the future come soon enough, but we can love TODAY. Being in the present is great, and something I can see you're doing really well. Then you can have happy memories of the past, and look forward to the future.
I know what you mean. That happens to me sometimes, too. I think you're right in that we're just remembering the good times. In a way, that's a good thing - to remember the good and filter out the bad...but as we've experienced it can backfire and make us melancholy to know we can't go back.
I recently read something about how important it is to live in the present because that's all we will always have. It's so easy to get wrapped up reminiscing about the past, or looking to the future and it can become difficult to really just stop and appreciate the very moment we're in.
I know it sounds a little cliche, and I normally tend to stay away from them, but this one just makes sense to me and I hope it does to you too.
xo
Kym
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